Wednesday, March 1, 2017

INSECURITIES....YOU BET! IT'S MARCH ALREADY!

Hi, All,

Sorry I missed last month's post, but time just slipped away from me...

Once again we are meeting for the IWSG where we get to vent or give advice to our blogger friends.

This year so far has had me very tense and anxious. Already it's March 1 and I feel like I'm still in limbo. I had high hopes at the end of the year for a few projects I was working on that had looked very promising, but sadly neither on panned out. Sigh.

I know we've all been there, but it seems like I've been spinning my wheels and going nowhere forever...

Most of my demise is from my living space. After I sold the loft, I moved into a high rise. Thought it had it all, but the my place sits right on the train tracks. I knew it when I signed lease, but I hadn't realized the trains clank every two minutes from 4am to 2am. For only two hours a day I get a reprieve. So once I get back I'll have to move again. I've been in my tiny condo in Orlando since Christmas. I had looked forward to spending my days writing on my balcony. As many of you know I've searched in Florida for almost two years before I found a place. Well, bad choice again...

The people who live here are mostly renters and trash the place like crazy. Although the maintenance crew is excellent, the trash still piles up all over. Ugh. I am a visual creature and waking up to trash when I walk Hamlet is not the way I'd like to start my day.

It has also been unbearably hot. Mostly mid 80's and humid.... normally the temps in central Florida for the winter months are cool in the low 60's during the day and upper 40's at night. There have only been three or four days with temps below 75.

So to keep things short, I am on the hunt again... which sadly leave me very little time to write. Between editing an amazing novella and running all over central Florida, I have no time. It saddens me that I have no time to blog either. I am in bed by 10:30 most nights these days...which is so not me...

Okay... pity party OVER....

My editing work brings me great joy because I am working with an amazing writer who is growing in leaps and bounds. I humbled that I am helping someone else hone their craft through my suggestions. So even though I am not writing for me I am writing, creating atmosphere, pace, and economy of words. That excites me and perhaps when I am done, I will have the motivation to carry on with my Film Noir story that I had started ions ago.

SO... for all you writers out there, like me, feeling trapped in life and feeling like nothing is happening in your life.... helping others achieve their goals and dreams will certainly put a smile on your day...

Big hugs to ALL and THANKS to ALEX, for letting us vent and support one another on the first Wednesday of every month....

Don't forget to visit the other members for inspiration and to help those of us who have anxieties this month..... Visit Alex Cavanaugh's list here.

I will HONESTLY try my best to get around and visit you all very, very soon....

22 comments:

  1. Sorry both places ended up being duds. I hope you find better ones soon. I couldn't handle the trash either. Trains... I could probably sleep through anything.

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  2. Oh Michael, I'm sorry there are issues with both places. You need to find a place to hang your hat for good.

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  3. Oh, my goodness. Eventually you could (COULD) adjust to the train, but it'd take time. Ugh. Good luck finding another place.

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  4. Hi, Michael:
    I had no idea you new place had trains disturbing your sleep. Ugh! I'm sure the person you're helping appreciates all you do to make their work shine! :)
    Cuddle Hamlet for me!

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  5. Sorry you are having so many challenges finding the right places to live. Must be very time-consuming looking for two places. At least you can leave the winter and go to Florida, though this has not been a bad winter in the Midwest.

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  6. I bet he is enjoying your help, Mikey!

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  7. Michael, I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time finding "home." And I do hope you find a way to ease your tension and anxiety. Perhaps this isn't the best time to try to create your own writing - it's wonderful that you are able to help someone else. I know when I'm jammed with "life" my writing just doesn't happen either. And that's okay. It will flow when it is right. Good luck with your real estate searches.

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  8. Aw, damn. Sorry your new places aren't everything you hoped they'd be :(

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  9. I can't imagine how frustrating it must be for you to not feel physical settled in a home. I'm sending good vibes your way that the perfect place shows up soon. In the mean time, that you're helping someone with their writing is a wonderful thing.

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  10. Try looking west a bit. Horizon West is exploding and it's gorgeous. Plus, most people who live out this direction are very responsible owners, so...

    St. Cloud also has some great places with lower cost. Basically, you have to get away from the heart of tourism to find a nice place. If you're up for a bit of a commute to the city, NORTH Apopka, Lake Mary, or Eustis are all pretty nice.

    Keep searching. I know you'll find something awesome, and don't lose hope in the meantime, eh?

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  11. Don't lose faith. The perfect place for you is out there and it will be worth the effort it took to find it.

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  12. Maybe there's a book in this searching you keep doing. Something to think about. :-)

    Anna from elements of emaginette

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  13. I'm so sorry to read that neither one of your new homes has worked out, Michael. You've been through so much just trying to find a place! I can only imagine how frustrated you are.

    Hang in there and take care of yourself. Hugs to little Hamlet!

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  14. Don't let lie walk all over you. Take a little bit of me time. Even if all you do is sit and rest. Good luck!

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  15. Maybe it's the season for wheel-spinning. I'm its victim as well, and I'm so tired of it. I'm looking for some sand to throw under my tires for traction. Good luck, Michael.

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  16. Sorry to hear the move didn't work out. I hope you find something you like better. Great that the editing is so fulfilling.

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  17. Now, why am I not surprised to hear that you are moving again, lol. Moving can be addicting you know. Much easier than say, cleaning the house. I remember one year I moved 4 times. I am sure you will find the perfect place sometime. Then you'll just have to sit down and write again.

    Glad to hear the editing work is going well. At least it keeps you in the writing world.

    Give Hamlet a pat on the head for me :)

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  18. Hi Michael - oh dear ... I can sympathise - I've had a hassly moving year too ... and almost certainly will need to move on. Still we must rise above it ... take care and I'm glad you've got Hamlet around to give you some creature comfort! All the best - Hilary

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  19. I hope you find a home where you have some peace Michael! It's difficult to be "home" and be in the middle of chaos or what feels like chaos, anyway. Cheers!

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  20. {{{HUGS}}} I'm sorry the places haven't worked out. I could not handle the trash either (what's wrong with people?)

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  21. Thanks for the words of encouragement! I almost feel like you, except replace jobs for houses. lol

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  22. So you have to move again! What a bummer. Sending special (((HUGS)))

    We've also had unbearably hot weather. My brain has been "super-fried"! LOL! But I've been trying to move forward with my writing though...
    Take care!

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